Watch Me Believe!

Watch Me Believe!

My entire life has been based on faith. Everything I have ever accomplished in my life has been because of my belief in the promises that God gave me. Everything in my life is proof of the faith that I have. I think faith is the only thing in my life I actually do right. Everyone sees it. People are amazed when they see how much faith I have. But what happens when I encounter a situation that bends the walls of my faith to their breaking point? How am I supposed to believe when all the odds are against me? What do I do when the world tells me one thing, but my heart believes in the opposite? How am I supposed to believe when I don’t receive an answer from God? For the past few months, I have encountered a situation where my faith is being put to the test. I’m not believing in something small. I am believing in the promise God holds for my personal life. Love. God told me a few months back that the girl that I was praying for would start a family with me and would one day sing along side me too. God showed me a few other things besides the words he gave me. I took it to heart. I am going to be very honest here. My entire life, I have been looking for someone. I had this empty spot in my heart that I thought could only be filled with another person. Honestly, I was chasing my personal desires. I messed up so bad. I left a trail of broken people. I was lost and desperate. I did not succeed. I gave up on love. I figured I wasn’t meant to be loved. I simply told God that I would just dedicate my entire life to serve him in music. Music had been my greatest passion. It was simple right? I just wanted to forget love and focus on music. But it wasn’t simple! God put a girl in my life. He tells me she is the one and takes her away. I tried really hard. I believed with everything I had. I fought off all the doubts. I believed in that promise he gave me. It all ended with the fact that I can’t be with her. Everyone pointed to the only possibility. She is not the one. But deep in my heart I really did not believe that. God has shown me way too much to not believe in that promise. For the first time in my life I felt like I mattered to someone. I felt like I was actually changing a life. I felt like I was finally making a difference. I felt I was doing all the right things. But I got ripped out of that beautiful dream. I felt like my heart was ripped out of my chest. My heart believes while my mind remains confused. I have cried out loud to God hoping he will give me a straight answer. I keep believing that God will come and confirm his promise. If she was not the one, God would of straight out told me almost immediately. In contrary, he showed me so many beautiful moments with her. Why does anything matter anymore? I lost the battle I fought so hard for. Even if I lost, I am still not accepting doubt. God said she is the one for a reason. Everything I have been fighting to overcome has led me to remember a verse from the bible that defines what love is. Love has no limit. Because of this girl, I realized what I was capable of doing. The world saw my faith in God. I really surprised myself to see how much fight I had in me. She will come back. I don’t doubt that for one second. She is the one. I really look forward to that day when I can run up to her, hug her, and never let go. I want her to feel safe, comfortable, and happy. I want to share all the blessings I have with her. I want to lead with her by my side. This is the greatest thing I have ever believed in. I believe in a life that is part of mine. Love. The girl that I was looking for my entire life was standing right in front of me. For the first time I was finally complete. I had found my missing piece. All those who spectate my life would’ve given up a long time ago if they stood in my shoes. I’m a guy of faith. Watch me believe!.

 

Pray to God to strengthen your faith. Don’t be afraid to ask God for a confirmation. Have faith in the promises he made you. Wait for him. God never fails someone with faith.

 

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

“Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.”

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Florentino Castellanos, or Tino for short, is the Founder of The Heart Of Worship Project. Florentino is a self taught musician since the age of 7. Florentino has been serving as a worship leader for over 5 years. Florentino graduated from Musicians Institute, Hollywood with a certificate in Audio Engineering. Florentino's dream is to build up Churches, Leaders and Creatives. Florentino is known for having an incredible amount of Faith in God.

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